exams.

I don't know why. CNY for me is over. Yes, i had fun these few days.
Busy visiting, busy packing my luggage and so on.
But one thing have been bothering me. All i think was exam results.
Not quite excited for the upcoming overseas attachment at all.
Well, maybe you can say 50%? My brain was occupied by thinking about it.
Cause i jollywell know myself that i never put all my effort into it.
I slack, i play, i chat, i eat, i sleep. Thats my daily routine.
And indeed, i studied last minute, which is the very first time.
So if i ever get bad results or repeat, i can only blame myself.
And its right that im wasting my dad's money, my education, my time, my everything.
What can i say now? Im speechless. The terror is simply hiding inside me.
Its like a shadow, dark shadow. Nobody can see, only i, myself.
Saying or worrying all these are pointless now i guess.
Seeing my dad pin so much hope on me. Sometimes, i feel like crying.
Being the only child, it seems that im a helpess kid.
I don't even dare to think about my future. All i do now is worried about my parents.
What can i say? All i can do now is await for the exam results.


My tears are flowing profusely.
I keep wiping with my handkerchief, but it seems pointless.
How i wish time would stop, so do my tears.



Loves,
kate.