Post exam syndrome

I know now worrying at this time is pointless. Clock is ticking away and im only left till a week that my world is gonna end. I know myself that i did badly for my exams, which is i think is worse than prelims. People around me kept saying i'll pass or i do not have to worry so much. Basically im the one that does the exams so im the only one that know how well i did the exams. People comforting me is like pointless. I believe that i'll breakout on that day. I even took leave on that day just to avoid having emotions showing in the office. And i believe that my cousin/uncle will pour cold water on me if my results are bad. I am still unprepared for the consequences after the exam results. What am i going to do? Kept having nightmares about my exams. They say dreams always turns opposite. I don't even believe such shits. I know script are being marked, my destiny cannot be changed. I just have to walk straight and face it. It is just that i am too timid to walk alone. I know my parents will disappointed in me if i did badly for it. The point is, i have to pay for the modules & retake again, wasting my money and time. I really want to graduate within 3 years and get a good job to support my parents. Thats all i can wish for. Is my wish too big to be granted? I need someone to guide me in my future. I don't even know what im doing or what i wanna do in the future. I am 21 going 22 yet im being selfless and hopeless. I shouldn't be born into this world in the first place. No motivations or goals or dreams. I am just studying/working for the sake of living. Im glad i have wonderful parents. But they have a disappointing daughter in return. I am so sorry.

Loves,
Kate